73/365

Breakfast was a banana and 2 damm cookies.
Lunch was a big chicken sandwich with bacon and mayo and blue corn chips and hummus alongside.
Supper was 100 cookies. Or 6.  I didn't really count.  The good news is I sent the rest home with Dad.  I'll try to have a better day tomorrow.  I wonder if my birthday coming up on Friday has anything to do with this sudden downturn.  I was on such a high when I hit 299, now I feel as though I'm so far from there and there's a little piece of me saying...what's the use.  I'm trying to shut that part of me up.

I revised my weight in the calorie calculator and it says I can now only eat 1760.  To me this means I'll be cutting it close everyday.  I counted on those extra 200 cals for a buffer.  I'm really losing enthusiasm for this project.

69, 70, 71, 72/365

My internet has been down so I had no way of posting or tracking my food online.  I promise you that Friday and Saturday held nothing unusual in the way of what I ate.  I was actually pretty proud of myself for staying on track without actually tracking.  Even so, Sunday showed my weight at 300.2 which is 1.2 pounds up from last week.  I saw it coming since I still weigh everday (Yes, I know I shouldn't do that.)  I have nothing to account for it.  I still took my day "off" yesterday even though I gained.  I didn't go too far off the books but I'm starting to get burned out on this whole process and I really needed that break.  I'm sticking with the process this week and we will see what Lady Scale says next Sunday.

No breakfast today...it was just a weird day.
Lunch with my family at Arby's.  I had that new turkey and asiago sandwich and apple slices.  Their yogurt dip tastes like nothing to me.  I also had a couple of Dollface's fries.
Dollface wanted to make cookies and I wanted to use my new Mexican vanilla that C and E brought me so we did and I ate far too many....maybe 6?   Not too good for a Monday after a gain but I can't go back and uneat it so...
Even so, I still have 655 left for supper.  Probably just a turkey sandwich. 

68/365

Suddenly sick of posting but here I am...
B was granola and a banana.
Snack was a little apple.
For lunch, Dad took me to the Soulard neighborhood because he had to pick up a part for a mower.  We strolled through the farmer's market there and then ate at a steakhouse called Tucker's.  I had a house salad and it had a yummy lemon vinigrette on it.  Also, a cajun chicken sandwich that was so good.  Please note, no fries or potatoes of any kind.  I had a lemonade to drink.
Snacks in the afternoon were a few M&Ms and some vanilla wafers dunked in chocolate pudding.
Supper will be a few spanikopita stuffed mushrooms.
If I have my usual ice cream treat cals for the day will be 1932/1930.
But...last night after I posted I actually had sliced strawberries and a few vanilla wafers instead of ice cream....it was so good.  Maybe I'll do that again.

67/365

Goals: 
A while back I did make a small goal of losing 20 pounds and getting under 300 by my birthday which is next week.  So it looks like I'm going to make that one..yay me! 

My other small goal was to bike 1500 miles by the end of this calendar year.  I've just closed in on 600 miles so far so I don't realistically think I'm going to make that one since biking is over by about September in the Mid West.  I'm riding as far as I can without my back being in pain for the rest of the day.  But I am slowly able to ride a little longer and longer.

I guess if I meet my weight loss goal on the next weigh in I'll reevaluate and make some new goals.  I don't really have a big goal as far as what I'd like to get down to.  I've been on tons of diets tons of times and probably collectively lost tons always to gain it back in times of stress so for now I just want to ride this wave as far as I can. 

Breakfast was Kix, sliced 'nana and milk.
My aunt took me to lunch at CBW, it's new in our community and neither of us had ever been there.  I'm pretty proud to say I actually looked stuff up before I went.  I was surprised to see the cals and sodium in some of those yummy looking wraps.  I ended up with a Santa Fe salad with chicken and chips on the side.  Total of 684 cals.
Snack was a lil' apple.
And supper is going to be spanikopita stuffed mushrooms and some garden potatoes sauteed along with an onion in (whispered)butter.  But it's just a little butter.
Total for the day so far 1659/1930.  So I can still have some ice cream in a little while if I want it.

66/365

I can't believe how the days are flying by!  66 already.

For breakfast I had a banana here at home.  Later I met a friend at The Bread Co and had a blueberry bagel with hazelnut cream cheese.  So good!

Lunch was a few spanikopita stuffed mushrooms which were awesome.  Along side I had hummus and blue corn chips.

I had a few m&ms for a snack...I just CANNOT keep those things in the house!

Supper will be half an Italian chicken sandwich with provolone bubbly on top.  And I don't know what I'll have with it.  But at only 1512/1930 I good for pretty much any side dish.

Still over 100 in the Midwest...we're melting.

65/365

For breakfast I had an almond nature valley granola bar.
Lunch was with Mom while we were shopping.  We went to Red Lobster and I had broiled flounder with tartar sauce, steamed broccoli, and two cheddar biscuits.  I am very proud of this order because in the past even when I was trying to lose weight I still would have ordered a baked potato but it was ok to have just the broccoli.
No real supper...kind of a snacky evening.  I had some cheetos (left over from my day "off", they're gone now) and later I might have a little ice cream.   If I do have the ice cream I'm at 1700/1930 for the day....what a difference some broccoli can make!

64/365 - Weigh In

Well, friends, I weighed in at 299 on the nose so I'm down 5.6 pounds.  Which means I've lost the 2.6 that I gained last week and an additional 3 pounds.   Now, I'm off to enjoy a well deserved day "off".  Thank you for supporting me through the week of TAWANDA!!

63/365

Breakfast was PBJ on an English muffin with a glass of milk.
Lunch was turkey chili with pita chips and mozzarella gooey on top.
Snack was an apple with a tablespoon of biscoff spread and later a few blue corn chips.
Supper kind of got messed up because while waiting for my garden potatoes and awesome stuffed mushrooms to bake my dad called wanting to try out a new ice cream place.  People first so I went.  The only food they had besides ice cream was something called "waffle dogs" so Dad and I split one of those.  It wasn't that great so I was glad I only had a couple bites.  Also, I had a small scoop of butter pecan.  Pretty good choices I think considering what was offered.  When I got home I did have a couple of the smaller mushrooms...so much better and better for me than the hotdog.

Estimate on cals is 1979/1930.
I'm anticipating a good weigh in tomorrow!

62/365 - On Scale Victory

Yes, I weigh myself everyday, yes, I know I shouldn't. 

When I got on the scale this morning, for the first time in 3 years I was under 300.  If you've never been over 300, maybe you cannot grasp the importance of this milestone.   Along with the clothing victory I really feel empowered, like I'm on my way.  Now, the last time I was under 300, I only stayed there for about 5 minutes so hopefully this time I can continue to move forward and STAY under 300 and go even lower. 

Breakfast was Kix and sliced strawberries with some milk.
Snack was a few apple slices and the last of the yummo dip.
Lunch was at a local woodfired pizza place where I had a small Caesar salad and split an 11 inch jerk chicken pizza.  I've never had jerk anything before.  It was really good and I'll be encouraged to try it in the future.
Afternoon snack was a Skinny Cow bar.
Supper will probably just be a snack of blue corn chips and hummus or some vanilla wafers or both.

Estimate of cals today is 2121/1930.  No way of knowing what the pizza was so this is probably a low estimate but I'm ok with that, remember I was very low on cals yesterday.

61/365 Non-Scale Victories

I had two major ones today!
First of all, I'm  embarrassed and ashamed to admit that I was so fat, I could not shop in that famous large lady's store, Ms. Bryant.  Granted I probably wasn't too far and could probably fit into a few things but the shame of it kept me out of there.  I went in there today and I fit into a lot of things!  It totally overwhelmed me and I think I made some poor choices because I wasn't thinking straight.  A red and I mean RED skirt?  Where am I going to wear that and it clinged a little too close in the belly area.  A burgundyish pair of "jeggings"?  It actually said they were jeggings on the label.  I think some items are going back even if just for my pocketbook's sake but wow, what a "high".

Secondly, I haven't biked the hill of death all summer but this evening I just thought I'd try it.  And I did ok.  Yes, I was out of breath and it took me a minute to recover.   However, I remember two summers ago trying to go up that hill and truly thinking my heart was going to give out.  I didn't know it could beat that fast and that hard.  I remember I felt it all the way through the top of my head.  It totally wasn't like that today.  An added bonus....I had a good looking jogger cheering me on from the top of the hill...nothing like motivation.

Stay tuned...I'm hoping to have a ON-scale victory to share tomorrow.

Breakfast was the same old Kix and milk.
I was running around all day and didn't eat lunch until 2.  It was Italian chicken with provolone on a bun with two servings of blue corn chips and hummus.
Later in the afternoon I had a Skinny Cow fudge bar.
Now it's well after suppertime and I'm not really hungry, I'm sure because of the late lunch.  I'm planning on having apple slices and yummo dip later.  If I do I come out to  1268/1930 for the day and that's ok because I'll make up for it tomorrow when I go to Peel Pizza with some friends.

60/365

Can't believe I've been doing this for 60 days!
B and L was the same as yesterday and I thought S might be too but at the last minute rounded up my support group for a Bread Co night.  I had 1/2 a chicken Cesar salad and 1/2 a grilled cheese as well as some much needed laughs.  We also split a chocolate chip bagel three ways and spread my awesome "apple" dip which I smuggled in, yes it's that good.  (It's a stick of  cream cheese, low fat if you want, a container of marshmallow fluff, and one cup of peanut butter and it WILL blow your mind.) 
Snacks were an apple with dip and a skinny cow fudge bar.

I went to the knee doc today and he's please with my progress on the knee, he talked me into a cortisone shot in my heel which is still troubling me in a minor way but he said the shot would get it ready for school to start.

59/365

BLand S was the same as yesterday except I added some pita chips and hummus to S.  Snacks were a sliced apple with some yummo dip I made and later some strawberries.  It's so hot here and I'm so sweaty after an evening bike ride that I can't think of an evening snack, only a tall icy glass of water.  So without an evening snack I'm at 1693/1930 cals for the day.

You got it...TAWANDA!  is from the movie "Fried Green Tomatoes".  It's what the main character said to give herself courage and it's what my sister-in-fat and I say to each other when we really need some get-up-and-go.

58/365

Breakfast was Kix with sliced 'nana and milk.
Morning snack was a few strawberries and a granola bar.
Lunch was chili with mozzerella goodness on top and cheezits along side.
Afternoon snack was a skinny cow fudge bar to cool things off.
Supper was Italian chicken with cheese on a bun and peas along side.
I might have some vanilla wafers later with chocolate hazelnut spread from Jif.
If I do my cals will be 1931/1930.  Maybe I'll have one less wafer to stay under cal goal.

Get ready to read at least 4 more entries very similar to this because the week of TAWANDA is ON!

57/365 Weigh In Plus Food Report

I weighed in at 304.6 which is up 2.4 from last week.  I am angry and disappointed in myself but grateful I'm only up 2.4.  At one point I was up over 7 from last week.  I'm also very pissed off that I cannot take a day "off" from measuring and logging.  Ughh.  I have my work cut out for me this week. No excuses!

Edited:
You have no idea how irritated I am to have to come back here and report the day's food on my day "off".  But I had 5 days off last week and look what it got me...my first gain of the project.  So here goes:

Breakfast was a frozen pillsbury biscuit with homemade blackberry jelly.
After church I had a peanut butter granola bar for a snack.
Lunch was an Amy's frozen entree, some sort of tamale.  Along side I had a few pita chips and hummus.
Afternoon snack was a skinny cow fudge bar.
Our family has a tradition called "July Chili" which I think is self explanatory and what I had for supper with a slice of mozzarella melted ooeygooey on top.
I'm planning on having some lucious strawberries with some Greek yogurt and a drizzle of honey later for a snack.

Cals came out to 1602/1930 so pretty good I think.  I went shopping today and didn't buy a single "junky" thing...And besides having plenty of July Chili for the week I also have several portions of Italian chicken in the freezer so I feel pretty well prepared for the week of no excuses.
TAWANDA!!!!!!!!!!

56/365

So again I did well on portion control but not so well on food choices or eating on any kind of schedule.  5 days off really screwed me up.

Breakfast was Kix cereal and milk.
Lunch was an apple and fruit dip.
Snacks were vanilla wafers and Jif chocolate silk peanut butter and some milk and later at Mom's I snagged some Hershey's chocolate drops.

1339/1930 cals so far and I'm not really hungry for supper.  I should probably eat something anyway but it seems so counter productive.

Weigh in tomorrow and I'm dreading it.

55/365

I think fighting my way back on track today went fairly well and it was fairly easy.  Mostly because I woke up feeling so awful....a food hangover if you will.  I didn't eat until noon and then only because I knew I'd be gone for until 8pm and wanted to stave off getting too hungry.  Lunch was scrambled eggs, turkey sausage, toast with homemade blackberry jam and a piece of cheese on the eggs.

I was helping MB photograph a wedding today so supper was wedding food.  I didn't make the best choices but not the worst either.  I stuck to one serving of each thing.  One piece of fried chicken, a small spoonful of mostacholi, a breadstick, a small salad and 2 glasses of lemonade. 

Estimate on cals for the day was 1461 so I feel pretty good about getting back on track.

52, 53, 54/365

Fail..Fail..Fail.

I have completely lost control.  I can tell myself it was because I was out of my routine or because I was away from home and my usual food and my measuring equipment or because I had a little one to look after or because there was all this running around that I don't usually do.  I guess it all boils down to stress.  After the second day I didn't really care anymore.  I knew I had lost it and there was no going back.  Knowing today was my last day to use the "out of my routine" excuse I planned a big fatty dinner.  I didn't even enjoy it that much and now I feel really crappy.  I took a sneak peak on the scale this morning and there's no way I'm going to show a loss or even stay the same this week.  I'm so disappointed that I won't be getting under 300 this week and probably not next week either.  I'm determined to get back with the program tomorrow.  I'm writing here so I can hold myself accountable.  54 days have already gone by and there's no time to lose. 

51/365

So the first day of my staycation with the girls was an epic fail foodwise.  Breakfast was ok, cereal and a banana and I know I had a little snack before lunch but I can't recall what.   So far, so good.

I had a few friends over to swim and made Italian chicken and they all brought something to go with it.  Although I probably ate a little more than I should have that part was ok.   My nieces wanted to make cookies and I can't count how many I ate.  I think maybe about 1/2 the batch?  My stomach actually felt icky from it.

Then suppertime rolled around and I knew Dollface must be really hungry because she didn't eat much at lunchtime and although I wasn't hungry I ate a ham sandwich and lots of chips with her.

There is no way to calculate cals today but I imagine it to be in the 10,000s.  

It is really distracting being out of my element but I knew it would be.  I guess I didn't prepare myself well enough.  Another try tomorrow.

50/365 - Weigh In

This morning I weighed in at 302.2 which means I'm down 2.2 pounds!  Waaahooo!  I'm so close to being under 300 I can taste it.   LOL

However, I'm already worried about how I'll do this week because E and C are going to Mexico and I will be staying at their house with the girls.  I'll be off home territory and off my regular schedule.  I've noticed in the past eating becomes a free for all for me in these situations.  Also, I won't be able to ride my bike during this time.  They do have a pool though.  I will try to remember how close I am to being in the 2's.  Maybe that will do the trick.

49/365

Breakfast was the same old Kix.
Lunch was scrambled eggs with a little cheese on top and some turkey sausage links also some grapes.
Supper was PBJ with some chex mix alongside and some milk to drink.
Snack was a spoonful of peanut butter onto which I placed a couple of M &Ms.
I am way low on calories...that has happened alot this week.  I might have a few more of those
delicious little M&Ms.
I feel pretty good about weigh in tomorrow.

48/365 - Thin Face

I went out to lunch with some school friends and I thought someone might notice I was just a tad slimmer but they didn't.  I know I have to lose a lot for people to notice but since I haven't seen these gals in a few weeks, I thought they might notice.  When I was in my mid-20s I lost over 100 pounds (only to gain it back and then some) and I recall that no one really noticed until I was about 40 down.  Well, then I stopped by my parents' to pick up Dollface and Mom said my face looked so... (I thought she was going to say RED because I was so hot at that moment) thin.  So maybe it is a little noticeable and this is a good thing.  I hope I've lost enough by the first day of school for some people to notice.

Breakfast was PBJ on toast and skim milk.
Lunch at a local winery was 1/2 a club sandwich and 1/2 some sort of salad.
Supper was an apple with peanut butter.
Snack was a handful of m&ms.

Didn't figure cals today but I guess I did ok.

47/365

Well, thanks to my two blogfriends who would spend the day with me.  Too bad we don't live closer.  I'm over the bit of glumness I was experiencing yesterday.  I felt better in the evening when I had a texting conversation with a friend in a similar situation. 

Today I had a double portion of Kix with milk for breakfast.  I was really looking forward to revisiting that old cereal from my kid-tested-mother-approved youth.  It was ok but the memory of it was better plus I was out of bananas to put on top.

Lunch was the last of the Mexican shells and some blue corn tortilla chips.

Supper was a Healthy Choice meal.   Some pasta, mushroom and pepper thing.  Pretty good for one of those meals.  I also had some Chex mix.

Snacks were an apple with almond butter.  I have a ton of cals left so I will def have ice cream later and I might just put some peanut butter on top since I missed it with my apple.

PS I think almond butter is way over rated.  But that's probably just my taste buds which are dead from processed foods talking.

Still doing well on exercise and I think I'm nailing down some sort of routine/schedule.

46/365

Breakfast was the same as the past few days.  Lunch was a turkey sandwich on wheat with mayo and bacon.  Snacks were trail mix and an apple with peanut butter. Supper was left over Mexican stuffed shells and a few blue corn tortilla chips.  I might will have some ice cream later.

I guess I'm feeling a little lonely today since on one asked me anywhere to celebrate the 4th.  Not sure why it's bothering me this year, it happens nearly every year and it usually doesn't phase me.  

I would be three and a half months pregnant if my last embryo transfer had stuck.

Aren't I just a bag of patriotic sunshine today?

45/365

Breakfast was same old, same old.  For lunch I made this recipe for Mexican Stuffed Shells.  It was very good and really held me over for a long time.  I didn't even need a snack this afternoon.  I'm not sure what supper will be yet.  Perhaps 2 ears of corn as last night.  I'm really not feeling hungry for it though.

44/365

Breakfast was the same as yesterday.  Lunch was a turkey sandwich with grapes and green beans from my dad's garden.  Snack was an apple and a PBJ, not together.  Supper was two ears of corn on the cob also from the garden. Weird snack and supper but it's just what I felt like.   I might have a little ice cream cup later if I want to.

Cals were 1857/1930. 

43/365 Weigh In

I weighed in at 304.4 so that means I'm down 1.4 pounds. 
Maybe just water because there's been so much darn sweating around here but
over all I'm pretty please about that.